Goodbye, LJ   
10:43pm 29/06/2009
 
mood: sad
A few years ago, I made my journal friends-only. Now, I regret to tell all of you that it's going private. I'll continue to write in here, but only people with access to my account (meaning...three people plus me) will be able to read them. So for YOUR intents and purposes...this LJ is being shut down. Public entries will remain public, and custom-filtered entries will remain custom-filtered because those are usually filtered to 2 or 3 people anyway.

For those of you I haven't seen in a while and/or don't talk to too often, I'm sorry. Add me on AIM -- leboshi. If I'm online, I'm invisible, so IM me whether or not you see me. You can also add me on Facebook or follow me on Twitter (also leboshi). Thank you all for your support and advice over the years. I'll continue to read YOUR LJs regularly, and I hope we can keep in touch in other ways.

With much love,
Ryan		  
     Ah, to be back now in Carrickfergus...4 handsome boatman to ferry me over4 handsome boatmen to ferry me over - I wish...
 
By way of explanation   
12:07am 24/06/2009
  I hate phones. I hate talking on the phone. Cell phones to me have three purposes: taking pictures when I don't have a camera, texting, and navigating via GPS. For my real friends, I don't mind a short phone conversation here and there when it'll save a few minutes of texting. I also don't mind talking if I never get to see you and the phone is the closest we'll get to hanging out irl atm. This applies mainly to my friends who are not in LA, currently for some and ever for others.

However, I have a rule. Call once and leave a message. If you have to, call TWICE and leave a message the second time. Three calls is pushing it. If I don't pick up the phone, it means I'm either incapable of picking up the phone (asleep), it would be rude to pick up the phone (eating/class), or I just don't want to talk to anyone right then. Either way, calling again is not going to change that, so leave a voicemail, and I'll call you back when I can. If you call me more than three times, you'd better have a fucking good reason. ("RYAN, THE SHOW STARTS IN HALF AN HOUR AND WE CAN'T GET INTO THE THEATER" / "RYAN, I HAVE A GUN POINTED AT ME, AND I'M GOING TO DIE.")

I've always been that way. Lucky for you, three years ago, someone made it much, much worse. She became the clingiest bitch in the world and went so far as to violate me in my sleep. Ever since, I've had a serious clingy-person phobia, and calling me too much is the easiest way to trigger it. Call me too much, and I will deliberately not answer the phone until you get the message and quit. Doesn't mean I don't like you... Just means you should stop fucking calling me. I'll call you when I stop freaking out over it.

Kthxbai.		  
     Ah, to be back now in Carrickfergus...2 handsome boatman to ferry me over2 handsome boatmen to ferry me over - I wish...
 
Oh, and P.S.   
12:37pm 19/05/2009
  I'd put this right on the Facebook invitation, but if you come to my recital, you get to meet Travis. :P

<3

College of Creative Studies, Old Little Theater (Building 494)
UCSB

Friday, May 22 8 PM
Saturday, May 23 2 PM		  
     Ah, to be back now in Carrickfergus...1 handsome boatman to ferry me over1 handsome boatmen to ferry me over - I wish...
 
HAH.   
10:51pm 15/04/2009
  Fuck you, Microsoft.

Fuck.

You.

I found a way around your monopolistic, thieving bullshit.

Up.

Yours.		  
     Ah, to be back now in Carrickfergus...0 handsome boatman to ferry me over0 handsome boatmen to ferry me over - I wish...
 
Not surprised... Just pleased. :)   
12:28am 12/03/2009
 
mood: dancing
music: Click the link. >:D
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y25SgIwy2BE

Not warning you what it is. :P		  
     Ah, to be back now in Carrickfergus...0 handsome boatman to ferry me over0 handsome boatmen to ferry me over - I wish...
 
Oh, composers...   
01:21pm 25/11/2008
  I feel so much better about my own level of nerdiness when I look at what other composers have done.

For example:

The beginning of "Fathoms Below" from The Little Mermaid (from the film, which is thousands of times superior to the Broadway version) pits a English Horn and a French Horn in call-and-response counterpoint.

And in John Cameron's orchestrations, he pits a mbira against a marimba in "Any Dream Will Do." Hilarity. (Yes, THAT'S what that fucked-up sound is supposed to be... I finally figured out where I'd heard that vaguely percussive, airy, indefinite sound before.)

I love it.		  
     Ah, to be back now in Carrickfergus...0 handsome boatman to ferry me over0 handsome boatmen to ferry me over - I wish...
 
My sign is vital, my hands are cold   
10:05am 22/10/2008
 
mood: bouncy
music: "Human" by The Killers
New favorite song... Step aside, Matt Nathanson and Aly & AJ...

Are we human, or are we dancers?		  
     Ah, to be back now in Carrickfergus...1 handsome boatman to ferry me over1 handsome boatmen to ferry me over - I wish...
 
OMG. TOP OF WISH LIST.   
04:52pm 26/07/2008
 
mood: enamored
http://store.nabaztag.com/us/product_info.php?cPath=23&products_id=45

What it is:
http://www.nabaztag.com/en/m-3-nabaztag-what-does-he-do.html

AAAAAH.

ADORABLE

AND

FUNCTIONAL.

ish.

I WANT ONE.

.______________. <3

And they can get married. *_____________*		  
     Ah, to be back now in Carrickfergus...1 handsome boatman to ferry me over1 handsome boatmen to ferry me over - I wish...
 
AND. *_*   
01:40am 05/06/2008
  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yqx3_Hx4AYo

*want*		  
     Ah, to be back now in Carrickfergus...1 handsome boatman to ferry me over1 handsome boatmen to ferry me over - I wish...
 
   
02:18am 18/12/2007
 
music: "All I Ask of You"
My favorite passage from Phantom is the intro to "All I Ask of You" that starts right after Christine's "What was that?" and ends as the song begins on the first Db.

I adore it.		  
     Ah, to be back now in Carrickfergus...0 handsome boatman to ferry me over0 handsome boatmen to ferry me over - I wish...
 
Checking in briefly with the world   
04:31am 14/09/2007
  Chris Crock-of-shit is what gives gays a bad name.

That is all.		  
     Ah, to be back now in Carrickfergus...6 handsome boatman to ferry me over6 handsome boatmen to ferry me over - I wish...
 
Vote!   
03:24am 23/05/2007
  Hello, all!

This is the short film I was asked to write music for. It's part of a competition, so vote for it! It's called "Biker Babe." (It's the one with the girl in the pink bikini. XD)

http://www.filmandmedia.ucsb.edu/announcements/harley-vote.html

Spread the word! :)		  
     Ah, to be back now in Carrickfergus...0 handsome boatman to ferry me over0 handsome boatmen to ferry me over - I wish...
 
I'm writing in Japanese to get the music right. Then I'll write English lyrics to go with it.   
02:26am 05/01/2007
 
music: LAREINE!!! ^_______^
いつもの帰り道を隠してる初雪の
冷たい息がそっと歌いかけて

耳を澄ませば


今も落ちて景色を真っ白く染める

雪景楽園

_の群に紛れ込んで

今も諦めたくない太陽は
散らばる雪片を卑しんで

淡雪を散らすこの曇らぬ空を
見上げて 舌先に＿雪片

粉雪で擦られたデパートの窓の向こうから
幽かな映像はこの見つめ合ってる他人を検討する

栄枯盛衰の気紛れで世界が変わり果てて



SOURCES OF INSPIRATION:
  • "LILLIE CHARLOTTE" by LAREINE
    去年の十二月　花やかな街角で君は突然立ち止まって
    不意に帽子を落とした振りして　｢僕に拾って｣とせがんできた
    ショーウインドー越しに映る二人は丸で映画やドラマのようなシルエット
    …
    オートの袖から吹き込む季節の吐息に震える君を包む
    …
    素直にあの場所で好きと言えたらどんなに素敵だろう
    運命の二人になれたかな？
    冷たい季節の吐息が空へと君を連れ去ってゆくよ
    このまま会えないなんて、LILLIE
  • "Romantic Season" by NEW SODMY
    今年もまた同じ　町の中で君は
    恋人達の群れに　憧れと孤独を
  • "IN FOREST" by La'cryma Christi
    指の隙間を擦り抜け真っ白な吐息　夜空に吸われてゆくよ
    見上げた僕の額に迷路似た雪が螺旋を描き始めた
    		•   
         Ah, to be back now in Carrickfergus...0 handsome boatman to ferry me over0 handsome boatmen to ferry me over - I wish...
     
    Man, I'm so fucked.   
    06:36pm 13/12/2006
     
    mood: loved
    music: "LILLIE CHARLOTTE" by LAREINE
    I am in such a horrible state of fuckedness that...ergh. Don't even know. Blah. This is just really fucking awesome. I think I'll give the news in a rather arbitrary order. Fuck chronology.

    First of all... My fuckedness (pronounced "fuck-ed-'ness, as though I were writing in iambic pentameter) is a direct result of my laziness. You know my aversion to homework? Well, it seems it's finally caught up to me after how many years. In music theory, it's worth 50% of the grade. I've done 2.5 of the 8 assignments... And...yeah. Even with A's on the midterm and final, that's barely a D. A passing grade is a C. A solid C, not a C-. Meaning I'm failing music theory. Isn't that peachy? I know all the material. I can whip out applied chords, modulations, and mixed modes until Mozart turns over in his grave, and yet I'm failing. That's...just wonderful. I'm wondering if they'll let me take 5E and 5F this year and then retake 5D next year for a passing grade. That would be really nice. We'll see if I can work out that deal with them.

    Second. Fiddler KICKED ASS. OMGZ. That was the best production I've ever been a part of. The actors, the orchestra, the tech work... GUH. <3 That was bloody brilliant. I can't wait to go home and watch the recording! ^________________^ We made over $2500 profit. PROFIT!!! That's insane. XD We're doing Chicago in the spring. ^____________^ This is me being unable to wait for spring to get here. XD Gina and CJ came, Jojo came, Kristen and Brandon and Tristan and Evan came... It was fun. ^___________^

    Third. The cast party was interesting. I got drunk and made out with four girls -- mostly Katie, Jessica taking close second, and Havilah and Kendra matched for third. That was interesting something I plan not to do again, hahaha. Ewwww...girls. >_< But yeah. Then other shit happened... And it got me into an argument with Jesse. Not so much an argument as a mutual hurt. Long story... But things are okay. I got him flowers last night and went to talk. He ended up making me dinner because I forgot to eat (dude, he made me pasta, salad, and garlic toast out of NOWHERE, and it was SO GOOD)... And then I spent the night with him. Let me just say that it's been a long time since I've had a night like that with him. Best of all, I think I may finally be his boyfriend once I get back from winter break. :) I'd post bits of the conversation that gave me this information, but...that would be a little too revealing. Not comfortable with that. But yeah. Happiness. Jesse == happiness. :)

    So now, I'm going off to read HPHBP for a while. ...And listen to LAREINE. <3 DUDE. Kamijo's Sherow Artists Society has three hot bands: Dollis Marry, Metis Gretel, and Lusia. SPEAKING OF WHICH!!!

    Fourth: MOLLY, I LOVE YOU. DUDE. How much do I owe you? <3<3<3 THANK YOU SO MUCH.

    Okay. Now. Harry Potter. XD


    Make-up sex is wonderful.    		  
         Ah, to be back now in Carrickfergus...2 handsome boatman to ferry me over2 handsome boatmen to ferry me over - I wish...
     
    Sarina Paris kicks ass.   
    03:56pm 11/12/2006
      I'll make a real post later. Just wanted to let you all know.  
         Ah, to be back now in Carrickfergus...1 handsome boatman to ferry me over1 handsome boatmen to ferry me over - I wish...
     
    This is the song that made me cry while I was lying on Jesse's floor with him last night.   
    02:44am 22/10/2006
     
    mood: lonely
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    High School Musical   
    03:12am 08/06/2006
     
    mood: intrigued
    I've expressed my disdain for this particular "musical" in the past, but I feel a formal voicing of my feelings has become necessary.

    Disney's travesty of musical theater they call "High School Musical" is...well...interesting. And not in the way that makes you say, "HEY, let's sit and watch this!" When five minutes into the movie, the two leads are forced to sing together at a karaoke night, NEVER having met, and burst into IMPECCABLE two-part harmonies, you know there's something fishy going on. Real or not, that's something that Padgett and few others I know are capable of. (The Bayers and Damms and Intersimones being most of the others.)

    Despite how ridiculous the entire plot is, I'm intrigued. The music is fun. I'm not particularly pleased to admit this, but I'd actually buy this CD. Not the DVD; the movie is a waste of 500 MB on my hard drive right now. The songs, though, are catchy 90's pop that I really miss.

    You may ask... What needs NOT to happen? Seeing as how the DVD has already been released and the CD has already hit #1 on the charts, the first thing that needs not to happen is MTI producing this musical. But hey, you win some, you lose some; they've got Rent. (And for those of you who may not know me well enough to infer this, Rent is the win.) It's horrifying. I do, however, admire the aim: bringing some semblance of musical theater to people who normally wouldn't engage in it as a form of entertainment. I certainly would do something a lot less shallow (and nasal), but bringing good music to the masses is a lifelong aspiration of mine.

    I'm gonna finish watching the movie now. ...Kaybai.

    EDIT (five minutes later):
    Oh. My. God. It's set in Albuquerque, NM. *dies*

    EDIT (another ten minutes later):
    Dude. I have never seen so many explicit stereotypes in a single televised production. This is ridiculous.

    EDIT (yet another five minutes later):
    THE GAY THEATER NUT IS NAMED RYAN. I AM GOING TO JUMP OFF A CLIFF NOW.    		  
         Ah, to be back now in Carrickfergus...3 handsome boatman to ferry me over3 handsome boatmen to ferry me over - I wish...
     
    WTF is this!? It's like sonoriceinescence   
    01:23am 01/06/2006
      http://youtube.com/watch?v=Zkox6niJ1Wc  
         Ah, to be back now in Carrickfergus...3 handsome boatman to ferry me over3 handsome boatmen to ferry me over - I wish...
     
    V_V   
    12:49am 15/05/2006
     
    mood: blah
    music: More Poppy.... ^^;
    IT IS STILL COMING BACK TO HAUNT ME. Every time I even THINK about "Waiting for Me," I can't help but think that I gave the altos the WRONG NOTE. >_o This is a direct result of my chronic inability to READ KEY SIGNATURES. I wrote an A# and kept teaching them Ab. >_< And that made the F# into an F#2... which is still cool and pretty but slightly more dissonant than what I'd originally intended, and either way, simply not what I'd originally intended. *Sigh* Ah, well. >_< *twitch*

    But "The Nightingale" is pretty. ^_^    		  
         Ah, to be back now in Carrickfergus...0 handsome boatman to ferry me over0 handsome boatmen to ferry me over - I wish...
     
    Today was...kind of scary o_o   
    07:55pm 14/05/2006
     
    mood: sore
    music: "Wa" by...uh...someone.
    Um... Yeah. I was really sick all day yesterday. Woke up early to go see Kristen, and we sat and were obnoxious, as per our custom. But I wanted to watch Supernatural (WHICH IS SO HOT), so she drove us over to that place... MEIJI!!! Meiji. And we got purple Pocky that turned out to be taro flavored. Go figure. Sadly, the boba place was closed. (That's the place with free wireless internet with which we'd hoped to watch Supernatural.) But, on a whim, I told her to take out her laptop and try anyway. So she did. ...And the wireless internet was up even though the store was closed. ^^; So we sat on a bench outside, eating taro Pocky and watching Supernatural. ...Until the store opened and our connection was disrupted. ^^; Much fun.

    But I felt sick all day. Basically everything Pepto Bismol advertises they cure. ...But I didn't have any. (...Though, now that I think about it, I think I might... No, wait, that's my mom's car. Not my closet. ANYWAY.) So after rehearsal, I lay down (at about 8) and just slept. I slept until 2 this afternoon. Yes, ladies and gentlemen, that's 18 hours. Whoo-hoo. But, for the second day in a row, I woke up with a really sore throat and with stuff in my chest. I've been wheezing, but it's not throaty... It's like there's stuff caught below my bronchial bifurcation... And yeah. Not fun. Too deep for coughing to loosen it up... Gah. I hope I'm not getting sick. Between all that, having headaches, feeling achy and sore... It feels like I am. I hope I'm not... *Sigh*

    I just played DDR with CJ and exhausted myself. So much for those 18 hours, lol. That hurt much. We need to buy a fan to bring with us. >.> Rawr. I'm so sweaty right now. It's really, really, really gross. Gross^3, even. Except that that makes no sense... Assume each of those is tense-differentiated an extra time. (What's after the second one, though? o_o Gross, grossly gross... o_o_o_o_o_o_o)

    Yes. I am going to...do music HW. *sigh* Oyasumi.    		  
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